Living in Japan

It is often said that you need to love yourself first before loving someone.

In my case, I don’t like myself while speaking Japanese because I am shy and not funny.

On the other hand, I can be more generous while speaking English.

Also, I can be manly while doing weight lifting or playing tennis.

That means that English and exercise makes me love myself.

As long as my life goes on in Japan, using Japanese is necessary.

I am seriously thinking about going abroad after this school year.

I feel alienated for being in the Japanese society.

To behave naturally, living in a foreign country is a good option for me.